Sunday, January 18, 2009
Last blogged @ 3:43 PM

I seriously feel very upset.
Something is killing me inside.
I cried so hard, I couldn't sleep nor could I eat.

I was talking to J.P just now.
And flashbacks kept happening.

Sometimes, I really wonder what you're doing.
I wonder what you're thinking.
I wonder why am I being blamed for accidentally doing the wrong stuffs.
I wonder why you couldn't just be a little more appreciative.

You told me I am special, but I never felt it.
It seldom happens that I feel pampered, but I didn't mind, all you had to do was treat me right.
I just feel tired, tired of being the one holding on to everything.
I thought it was about compromising to each other,
but I realised that even after I told him to take more innitiative to sms me in the morning, it happened only for one day, when I woke him up for school, and from then onwards, None.


I don't know what to do.
You tell me that you're willing to change for me.
But why wasn't that the answer I got when I asked you face to face?


I just want to feel that I'm being cherished, is it all that hard?
I'm heartbroken, and I'm at my wits ends.
Don't worry everyone, I won't start scratching my wrist with a razor blade nor would I take the plunge because of this.
I just need to find an answer.