I am so tired.

I am so sick of everything in ward.

I can understand, I'm not some guaiguai girl that knows how to suck up that well.

I'm more of a to-the-point person.

My CI is not, she expects me to greet her when I see her and expects higher than what I normally produce.

A total wet blanket.

Give me a short break please.

Here am I having justlike 4+/5 hours of sleep per day,

and you're down to make me feel sooo bad about attachments.

Whatever happened today just killed all my enthusiasm in working.

I wish I was with my friends.

I would have more say.

Even for simple stuffs, I get pinpointed.

Today,

I was supposed to bring one of the patient with MRSA using a comode (something like a wheelchair, but has a butthole on the seat).
The patient could manage himself to the toilet.

He verbalised it, okay.

Fine you want me to bring him to the toilet,

I really don't mind helping,

despite having to take my own team & JP's team's vital signs.

JP's team had no student nurses and EN's on breaktime too.

All break on the same time, I wonder why too.

Nonetheless, despite my workload, I agreed on him, thinking that I can cope on it.

(At that time the patient from my cubicle havent requested to bathe yet.)

As when I came back from break,

my team's EN would already be back from break,

and obviously, 12pm's vital signs can wait, as it was only 11:15.

JP's team got hourly vital signs due at 11am.
I had to do it.

SHE, came and told me to bring bed17 to the toilet.
I went to the patient, and he told me he could bathe by himself,

just like yesterday, he did it for himself too.

What makes today a special day just so she was here today.

I took the comode, pushed it to the patient, before I even lock the wheels,

she asked me out of the cubicle and asked me what I had to wear to nurse the patient.

I was thinking, since I won't be bathing him, what's the purpose of me gowning the full PPE?

I would only have to push the patient there and when he's done, he'll press the call bell and I'll wheel him back.

Which part of it does it shows that I'm gonna have contact with the patient?
The comode?

Even if it is the comode, I would only have to wear gloves.

She wanted me to write a memo regarding that.

I feel like a total idiot.

I mean, this is just plain unfair lah.

Stop your nonsense, thou I know you caught me once with my nose stud on,

just after break, when I forgotten to remove it, since it was already a part of me.

A total stuck up bitch.

Really.

I dont have the time to rant on more.

I'm just feeling very frustrated,

and not only do some people fail to emphatize with me,

they even rub it in.

Hello, I'm not in the mood.

Must everything be spelt out.

I AM ANGRY.