Luv Bebe.


My pretty gift after CNY.




J came to my house just.
Damn shocked, cos I didn't expect anything other than books & papers & ink.
I wasn't ready for his question.
I'm hard to do.
Difficult to understand.
Really.
I have stuffs I haven't settled.

I have a mind that hasn't calm down from loud musics and alcohol.
I have a heart that just wanna fly for the time being.
Friends, that's what I want now.
When the time's right,
I'll know.
I've changed A,
after you, I've became another person.
I hate myself,
but do I have a choice?

Honestly, even if I were to quit clubbing,
I doubt I'll have a calm mind/heart/effin soul.



I'm so sorry,
I just wanna fly for the time being,
but I don't know how to be straightforward to a person,
in this perspective.




I always want things that I cannot get.
I wanna be like how I used to be.
Meet the same guy,
do the same thing,
eat the same food,
hang around the same estate;
everyday without fail.
Just because I loved him,
& I know he once loved me too.



I cried out to sis on how much I've changed.
She told me,
'My old life is now like her present life.'
We really switched souls.



Back to books now,
I really don't have a choice.